LIFE ON THE EDGE
Slipped again - for several weeks this time. So now I get to "live life on the edge" until my first urine test in Diversion. I had three days and then I smoked this morning. SHIT! I have discovered that I have more of a problem than I thought.

Tonight I attended my very first Marijuana Anonymous meeting. I was very nervous. There were five boys in the group - I say boys because the oldest of these five couldn't have been older than 16. There were others - twenty-somethings, thirty-somethings... I couldn't speak becuase i have less than 24 hours sober. I did get a chip for showing up. It is pink.

Three women gave me their phone numbers. I may actually call them.

I have a problem living life without marijuana. I heard a lot of very helpful things tonight.

When I got home I asked Husband to please hide his weed. I told him that I was not out to 'reform' anyone else, but if he chose to continue smoking, I would appreciate the support of not being able to find it myself. He agreed. I will work on me. I need to be less apologetic to him about my situation. I am not inconveniencing him - I am repairing me.