FRIDAY NIGHT FEVER

Traditionally this would be the night of the week when I would come home with a six pack of Corona, roll a fattie and burn one while I drank the other.

Not this Friday...This Friday I attended my first DIVERSION Class, lead by Betty ("Da Bomb"), 73 years old, 26 years clean and sober. After three hours, talking and videos, I can begin to see that I have a problem facing a certain reality and that I use marijuana as a 'numbing'. We watched a video by Bradshaw (Dad gave me this tape years ago and it sits in the cabinet collecting dust. Today I watch it) on the Family - this one was titled "The Bad Child". I am learning there is a reason I am the way I am and that I can change me for the better. It's amazing....we talked about how potential is diminished when drugs and alcohol are used to 'enhance' life. Imagine what I could do without drugs, if I am as accomplished as I am with them.

Sky's the limit baby!

I did flush one last bud down the toilet this morning. It was 'calling' me. I could have given it back to Husband, but that would be later and I'd have to admit that I took it.

I need to keep me real - rigorous honesty is much harder than it sounds.

Ciao