Monday, February 17, 2003

You've Lost That Lovin' Feelin'
Friend's spouse moved out last weekend (prior to the Heart Holiday). Friend confided that feelings not expected arrived ten-fold. Numbness, guilt, a feeling of 'letting down' offspring, and having to admit to self that it was actually over. I can't imagine as I left my first spouse WAY before fifteen years of marriage had passed. But I CAN relate to the feeling of having let the child down. I was in it for the long haul. It got difficult (I was twenty) and I bailed - with child. Today I still feel (even after making another go of that first marriage when child was two) like I let the child down by not trying harder, putting up with the unhappiness...etc. I KNOW I did a better thing for my child by leaving, but I know what Friend is going through when it comes to the kids.

Friend has a new love, a current love and Friend is blossoming into someone Friend would not have been if Friend tried to 'put up with the unhappiness' - still hurts like hell though.

Love and Peace to you Friend.

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