It's Monday....spent all weekend packing. Washed walls, filled holes, threw out trash....

I realize that perhaps I have thrown myself right into the middle of a Catch-22..I started smoking casually...then I started smoking after work...then before work...then during work...while my life became more and more unmanagable, I was unaware, by choice.

Now I am very aware.

Now begins the climb out of it!